Random Thoughts and The Butterfly Project

The worst feeling for me is not knowing what is going on. Feeling clueless. I am laying in bed after eating and trying to keep it since i havent kept anything in weeks. I feel dizzy a lot but its worse now. I havent been getting a lot of sleep so i dont know if im dizzy from that or if its bc im not eating enough. A friend texted me a picture today of her self injury cuts and it really triggered me. So i drew butterflies all over my body .. Everywhere i have old scars or new cuts, i drew a butterfly and wrote "for" and a name of a person i knew who was struggling ir has in the past struggled with self injury. It has helped alot. I have a total of 5 on various spots on my body and i am always seeing them. I wish i knew something like this that would help me want to eat more but im not sure what that would be. I dont know what this post was about but maybe the butterfly project will help someone who reads it. I sent a picture of each of the butterflies that had a name on it and was a bit surprised when i got the response "this made my day!" im extremely happy that i could help someone else and myself at the same time. Here is a picture of my butterflies and where i got the idea from:)