Intro to my blog.

Hello my name is Chelsea Bonnin and this is my blog. Ive never blogged before but i thought i should make one because i feel i am in need of being able to express myself through writing.


A little about me-
I am 17 years old, and i have been struggling with an eating disorder for about 5 years and a cutting addiction for 3 years. I have been trying to find the courage to be in recovery for both addictions. Ive decided that im gonna be completely honest about how my life is right now. im not going to sugar coat anything so if you are reading this and struggling with cutting or eating disorder and are easily triggered, plz DONT read this.
I was sexually abused at age 4 too, and that is a big reason why i have my eating disorder and cutting problems. Its so extremely hard to be okay with myself knowing that the person who hurt me when i was younger is probably still out there hurting other kids because i didnt tell soon enough. Its a daily struggle to remember that i am not the cause of him not being caught-that someone should have stepped in and saved me.
I like music (Britt Nicole, Natalie & Amy Grant, Adele, and Mark Schultz), nature, and movies. I dont have many friends except ppl that i have met online, and they are all very dear to me. I love each and every one of them:)


A little about my family-
Well, first off, my parents' names are Dana (40) and Daryl (40) and they are divorced and have been since i was 3 or 4. I have one brother named Michael (21), and 3 step sisters named Rachael (20), Destiny (16) and Amanda (13). My brother is married to a woman named Yente (pronounced Yenta) and has a daughter named Isis, who is turning 1 years old today. My family is my life, although i live 100 miles away from them. A fact that i hate.

Whats going on today?
Today has been quite a boring day. Last night, a friend triggered me by telling me her ways of purging and it totally freaked me out so i had to take my meds early and go to bed. and since i took them for the first time in a while, they knocked me out til like 5:30 pm. Well thats enough until next time! bye guys.