Trust.

there have been times in my life when I trust really well, and other times when I dont trust anyone. it's like Everytime I get comfortable trusting people and start believing they won't hurt me, the prove me so wrong. now I find myself scared to go on with my life bc I don't want to be violated again. so I finally made the decision to get in a relationship with a really nice guy who so far has treated me well. the times I have gone out with him, I had a lot of fun and i felt comfortable, but then we get in a relationship and all the sudden im scared to death that he is going to hurt me. l have a feeling that it's not him though; it's me, and my past. I know it's because I've been so hurt so many times in the past and I am trying to protect myself by being on guard all the time. on the other hand though, it's exhausting. I'm tired of letting my past control me. I want to be able to go on a date with him and not have that voice in the back of my head saying "watch out" 24/7. I have a feeling that this won't happen anytime soon though... :/