Another Incredibly Raw Blog Post.

WARNING: if u know me and dont like to keep your mouth shut, don't read this. If u don't know me and dont like to keep your mouth shut, dont read this.

Now that my intro is out of the ways I can begin to tell you what ha been going on in my life.

So I met this guy of whose name I willl not mention, about a month ago. He seemed like a really nice guy and a possible friend. I have been wanting to do drugs for a while now but never had them handed to me so I never did them. One thing that this guy had to offer me was drugs and it was the first thing he offered me. I gave in the first time he brought them up. I wanted son much to be out of mg head that I was willing to do anything to get there. U went over to his house and the first drug he introduced me to was meth. I really liked it actually because it stopped all of my racing thoughts and kept me focused. Although I'm not proud of this particular choice that I made, I am even more upset about the choices i made next. I invited this guy to my house. What ends up happening is that I end up getting raped without even knowing that was the case until almost 2 weeks later and after he is moved out of my house. I have heard many times that It is never the victims fault and I believe that; except in this case. In this case, I feel like it IS my fault and I need to get over it. I feel as if I should not say anything because if I hadn't done what I did this probably wouldn't have happened.

I haven't posted in a while because j didn't even know that I wanted to tell whoever reads my blog about the dumb ass mistakes I have made. I have decided that if I want to have. An honest blog, I am going to have to find a way to tell the truth about what has happened. Maybe no one reads my blog, idk. But even if that's the case I still feel like I need to learn and be comfortable with being honest.

Im just ranting now. Just so u guys know, I am no longer doing drugs and done them since that one-week stretch of bad decisions. It was experimental and it's not happening again. I'll keep you updated from here in out. Dont judge, thanks. :)